*sigh*

[stardustonsable]

http://www.racialicious.com/2010/02/11/when-racefail-meets-playboy-the-john-mayer-interview/

I can hear some of you snickering about the fact that I like John Mayer anyway. But. I've been wanting to say something, but ^ that person said it much better, and what I'd say would just turn into me whining about my life so *handwave*. Let's put it like this. Every crush I've had since the 9th grade has been on a white person. Most of the musical artists I listen to- are white. The boy I have a crush on right now? Is white. Yes, my Perfect Dude is a ginger with an accent, preferably Scottish (my ginger obsession has bloomed as of late).

I was one of those girls who wanted to wanted to be in that deep sea of blankets and what not. And *shrug* it hurts, to hear him say shit like that, it hurts whenever the subject of dating black women comes up and everyone's like "lolno" (yes, I have heard it happen). No, I haven't quite been able to listen to any of his music quite yet, just because now I know that he really isn't talking to me, or about me.

It just exacerbates the worries I've been having in reference to my hair, and my crush and. Bunches of shit *handwave* I'm lol!overinvested, mostly, but. How about no one ask any of MCR how they feel about interaccial dating. Just in case.

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[ficsoreal.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[stardustonsable.livejournal.com]

♥

[megabear09.livejournal.com]

[rant]
DUDE. THIS.
I've been trying to think of it less as an attraction to people outside of my race and more as an attraction to... just people. For the most part, I don't give a shit about what they look like, I just want a dude that's good at cuddling and knows who Joss Whedon is, dammit! :<
I've actually dated like 1.5 black guys before. I know, shocker! But not only did they fail at cuddling and not know who Joss Whedon is, but one "loves it when his girl has shoes that are more expensive than his are." FUCK. THAT. So then I started this long-term relationship with a white guy and my family and friends were automatically all like "MEG'S INTO WHITE GUYS, LA LA LA" NO, SOCIETY. HONESTLY, MEG IS INTO DORKS. GIVE ME A BLACK DORK WHILE I'M SINGLE, AND I'LL GIVE HIM A FAIR CHANCE.

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Oh, and I've actually noticed that people are way more accepting of my natural hair than I was expecting. I was REALLY worried about Chris not liking it, but I explained why I did it to him and he appreciated it a lot more. And, more than once, random people have walked up to me on the way to class and gone, "I know you don't know me, but I really want your hair :D" And those are people from Brimingham Fucking Southern. So don't be so worried about it. :)

[stardustonsable.livejournal.com]

Your rant is my rant, man. I mean. Ok. I'm aware that I'm attracted to white dudes, mostly because during the point when I was all kaBLAM SEXUALITY I was also like kaBLAM ROCK MUSIC, so, there's that. But, I've seen some black dudes that are geeky as all hell and wear pants that fit >.> and been like "uh, yes, please". So. Danielle's into. people. it just so happen that she is also surrounded by mostly white people so HEY guess who she's attracted to. Also, my crush is a big ol' dork, Meg, I'm so embarrassed by how into him I am.

Funny (and totally expected) thing. I get so many compliments about my hair at ASFA, also, some hair groppage from Babies that I don't know, but whatever, its all in affection. Its my family/ Certain Black People at ASFA that know me fairly well that's asking "What's wrong with your hair." People are silly.

[megabear09.livejournal.com]

I read all of this in your voice. Particularly the kaBLAM SEXUALITY. Is that weird?

Silly, silly people. :/

[stardustonsable.livejournal.com]

pee ess you and Chris are like, the pinnacle of Coupledom, as far as I'm concerned.

[megabear09.livejournal.com]

Seriously? I mean, I'm totally happy and I think he is too, but I've always thought that people wondered why we started dating... I was just ending my blue liquid eyeliner phase and Chris was still Chris. XD