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stardustonsablesup LJ. Long time no post. I've officially been in college for two months, or it'll be two whole months in...5 days. It's. We'll talk about that later.
I'm um. knitting a lot? And reading lots of Inception fic. And. going to class.
...yeah. I kind've haven't made a single new friend and am either massively unimpressed or dislike all my classes. None of the classes are interesting. I'm already looking for my classes next semester and they're all so dull. There are no classes here about the magic of harry potter or fucking even underwater basket weaving. And it makes no sense that they have such basic shit, because it's not like the school is lacking in funds. I more or less hide in my room and live for the times when I can talk to my friends in high school. I've had several of what my friend refers to as "Freshman breakdowns". I mostly don't have anyone to eat lunch with, or hang out with. It's partly my fault, my stupid irrational fear of new people and my inability to make small talk and my general disposition with is kind've unpleasant until you learn my quirks. It's partly that I've been completely spoiled by ASFA, that the people here aren't interesting ( I know I shouldn't say that because I haven't talked to them and partly it's not true because there are people here that are so smart but goddamn wear an interesting t-shirt, have a cool haircut. give me something to work with here, people)
I seem to have managed to get myself trapped in this state for another four years, and this time without even the bonus of loving my little pocket of liberal arts craziness.
The worst part is when my mom calls and says I sound unhappy. Because really, my parents can't afford to send me anywhere else, and my grades aren't good enough to get me scholarships anywhere else. So. I'm just stuck here.
I'm um. knitting a lot? And reading lots of Inception fic. And. going to class.
...yeah. I kind've haven't made a single new friend and am either massively unimpressed or dislike all my classes. None of the classes are interesting. I'm already looking for my classes next semester and they're all so dull. There are no classes here about the magic of harry potter or fucking even underwater basket weaving. And it makes no sense that they have such basic shit, because it's not like the school is lacking in funds. I more or less hide in my room and live for the times when I can talk to my friends in high school. I've had several of what my friend refers to as "Freshman breakdowns". I mostly don't have anyone to eat lunch with, or hang out with. It's partly my fault, my stupid irrational fear of new people and my inability to make small talk and my general disposition with is kind've unpleasant until you learn my quirks. It's partly that I've been completely spoiled by ASFA, that the people here aren't interesting ( I know I shouldn't say that because I haven't talked to them and partly it's not true because there are people here that are so smart but goddamn wear an interesting t-shirt, have a cool haircut. give me something to work with here, people)
I seem to have managed to get myself trapped in this state for another four years, and this time without even the bonus of loving my little pocket of liberal arts craziness.
The worst part is when my mom calls and says I sound unhappy. Because really, my parents can't afford to send me anywhere else, and my grades aren't good enough to get me scholarships anywhere else. So. I'm just stuck here.
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Date: 2010-10-11 03:26 pm (UTC)We will also get you drunk*cough* cough*And if it's at the same time I HAVE TO SEE YOU. OUR FROS HAVEN'T NUZZLED IN YEARS. YEARS IN TERMS OF FRO YEARS.
Also, this sounds exactly like my first fall semester of college. What made it even worse is that I was a music major from the beginning and therefore only knew music majors for a while... I took my first gen ed this semester and didn't know anyone in the class. XD
But I promise promise promise things will get better. Let's face it, you're too cool of a person for people to not notice you. :)
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Date: 2010-10-11 06:59 pm (UTC)**hugs** thank you for being older and wiser yet also a weirdo who understands me.
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Date: 2010-10-12 03:19 am (UTC)getting you boozed uphanging out. :D